It’s been a while since I’ve written here. Things have been a bit crazy, busy, and at times. downright weird. It feels like every time I take a step or two forward, I’m taking just as many back. Then another step forward, then back again. Yep, I’ve been Dancing the Pandemic Cha Cha.
For me, it seems that this pandemic has made me even busier. New projects have arisen – and fallen to pieces. Several new opportunities have presented themselves, then disappeared because we can’t get together to accomplish them. I’ve a book I’ve been working on with a wonderful co-author that seems to take big leaps forward, then stall because, well, life. My Master Gardener projects are numerous and the Zoom meetings plentiful – yet there are many classes and activities that have had to be placed aside, for now. This Pandemic Cha Cha sure has me dancing in circles. Good thing I love to dance!
I used to think that I had it all figured out, this thing called life. If I kept a routine, a schedule, then everything would fit into place. I juggled, I moved things around, but I was able to get everything done. Now, I may plan for days, weeks even, all to watch it fall flat or be scrapped entirely. For an anal Virgo who thrives on order and lists, all of this has been particularly challenging. But it has also been good for me. It is showing me that I can be resilient. I can set aside the lists and try and live in the moment. While it still drives me nuts that my well-crafted schedules often dissolve into pieces of crap, I am adapting.
And I know I am not alone. You, my loyal readers, are sure to be experiencing this same dance, this Pandemic Cha Cha. We all know and feel the disappointments, cringe with the rescheduling, surge with anticipation only to have it all yanked out from underneath us. But there is hope. This won’t last forever. If we all just try and relax (and by all I definitely mean me), breathe into the changes, the letdowns, and delayed dreams, they will resurface, reignite, and become our reality – soon.
So, let’s keep dancing this dance, breathing through the changes, and going with the flow. For soon, we will all be wondering why we danced in the first place as we see our lives return to “normal” once again.