Her fingers speed across the keyboard, barely keeping up with the words pouring out of her thoughts. Furiously she types, trying to get everything onto the page before it happens. Then, bam! Gears screeching, the whine of metal on metal. You know the sound. The sound of distraction, of your brain switching off. It’s the moment when your train of thought has derailed.
I’ve been having this problem a lot lately. My day starts off well enough. I’m focused, have a plan and energy galore. Everything seems to be in place for a productive day. Then I sit at my laptop and begin to work only to come to a screeching halt. My train of thought is lost, derailed before I barely even begin.
Trying to put my finger on the cause of this problem has been difficult. At first I thought it was just the procrastination demon coming out to play. But I’ve been actually doing stuff that needs to get done so I can’t blame it on that. Then there was the theory that perhaps there was so much to do I couldn’t stay focused just one thing. Okay, feasible but not likely since that usually doesn’t cause my train of thought to switch tracks so quickly. So, what could it be? Why is it that I can’t seem to get the train moving towards its destination?
Struck By The Train of Thought
At this point I’m feeling a bit like Pooh Bear (my husband’s knick-name for me). One arm crossed over my belly, the other raised, my index finger tapping my forehead. Think, think, think. Then, I get hit on the tracks, struck down by my own train of thought. The reason I am having so much difficulty staying task, keeping my train on the rails, is that what I am doing is not resonating with me. I’m forcing myself to work on something I really don’t want to be working on at that moment. Which brings me to my point – see derailed again. What is it that I really wish to be doing?
There is a project I have been working on and off for quite a while now. A book that has been in my head and in the works for years. Every time I hit that derailment point it is usually because I am, in reality, wanting to work on this project instead. Not that I am truly unhappy with any of the other things I have been doing. On the contrary, I am enjoying them. It’s just that this book, this project is vying for my attention. Attention that I am not giving it right now.
Sure, I may have an entire section done and part of the second as well, yet I am constantly allowing myself to be pulled in other directions. Instead of completing this project I keep taking on numerous other projects. What’s a witch to do?
Getting My Train Back on Track
Getting my train back on track may take a good bit of work on my part as well as some changes to my current schedule and events. While there are several things I am unwilling to give up – my drum circles, healing rituals and teaching classes – there are other things I can set aside, for now.
My witchcraft has always been a priority and since this project directly involves my Craft, I don’t have to compromise on that. However, I will be doing less of the “extras”. Or, perhaps I’ll give myself a less stringent schedule on when they may get accomplished. Giving myself some room to keep my train on track will allow me to get to my destination more quickly and with less stress and “Squirrel!” moments.
Writing this I can already feel the engines purring, the train getting ready to pull out of the station and back onto the tracks. Sometimes getting derailed is exactly what we need to complete our journey, to help us to map out what destination we really need to see. So remember, if your train of thought gets derailed, hop off, check your map and readjust your GPS. Get yourself a ticket to where you actually want to go, not just to where you thought you needed to be. You’ll enjoy the ride so much more.